I have learned to consider
the whiteness of a room
the solidity of an absence
the rush of withdrawal
and the science of getting through.
I am a faultline ripped.
all diagnoses aside, there is just my name,
certificate-d as fact. the plastic is getting dirty,
and i need to renew my nice, healthy
we can laugh
but stain is as stain does,
and your white stains
will not wash off.
~ Shana Bulhan Haydock
Shana Bulhan Haydock is a young queer poet of colour. Currently in Massachusetts, USA, they grew up mostly in India. They work to create radical spaces for psychiatric survivors. Their work is forthcoming in ‘Reveries & Rage‘.