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Alone in Babel, Arts & CultureJune 22, 2014

The Drugs Don’t Work

Adam’s anxieties towards the ‘actual’ and the ‘virtual’, however, culminate in his self-identified fraudulence; indeed, he considers himself at one stage to have been operating as ‘a small-time performance artist pretending to be a poet’. ‘That I was a fraud had never been in question,’ he adds, ‘who wasn’t?’ Adam is drawn into the confusion of his own fraught dishonesty, gradually losing sight of the boundary separating the real from the fabricated, unable to control the various meanings which might be projected onto him, though meticulously attempting defend himself, to ensure a particular, unmisinterpretable sense of self. As with the poetry, however, Adam finds this a constant and unmanageable exercise in failure. As the novel progresses, his anxieties towards this continuous performance intensify. Indeed, he draws the comparison between his existence in Spain and the composition of his poetry in an unprompted moment of personal scrutiny, bordering on justification:

…my research had taught me that the tissue of contradictions that was my personality was itself, at best, a poem, where “poem” is understood as referring to a failure of language to be equal to the possibilities it figures; only then could my fraudulence be a project and not merely a pathology; only then could my distance from myself be redescribed as critical, aesthetic, as opposed to a side effect of what experts called my substance problem…the origins of which lay not in my desire to evade reality, but in my desire to have a chemical excuse for reality’s unavailability.

And yet, for Lerner, ‘Adam’s awareness of the virtual is [also] a heightening of experience and not just a denial of experience: a way of “experiencing mediacy immediately,” to use the phrase he uses while praising John Ashbery’. In this sense, at least, Adam’s cultivated striving for immediacy, the fabrication of his own complex, almost Protean self, owes a debt to Walter Pater. In the ‘Conclusion’ to ‘Studies in the History of the Renaissance’ (1873) — a collection of essays treating the aesthetic values of art, literature and (ultimately) life — Pater advocates a conscious and continued variability in human experience. ‘To burn always with this hard, gem-like flame, to maintain this ecstasy,’ he writes, ‘is success in life’; to ‘set the spirit free for a moment’ is experience’s end, whilst ‘our failure is to form habits’. This, of course, returns to the interpretive process. Adam reflects upon his individual experiences, suggesting that ‘when one was in the midst of some new intensity, kiss or concussion, one was suddenly composed exclusively of such moments,’ before echoing Pater’s above aesthetic strategy himself.He is hesitant, however, to validate this intensity. His fraudulence gets the better of him:

…such moments were equally impossible to represent precisely because they were ready-made literature, because the ease with which they could be represented entered and cancelled the experience: where life was supposed to be its most immediate…life was at its most generic, following the rules of Aristotle, and one did not make contact with the real, but performed such contact for an imagined audience.

If, as Pater asserts, our failure is to form habits, then Adam’s anxiety arises from a sense that even his most immediate and variable experiences retain a bathetic sense of exhaustion. The intensity of the encounter has been used up before it has been experienced, reducing it to a kind of fraudulent repetition, a performance for ‘an imagined audience’. And yet, later in the novel, Adam again interrogates his personality. ‘Maybe only my fraudulence was fraudulent,’ he suggests, though this is, in a sense, exactly the point.

Adam, like his poetry, is presented in fragments, a combination of the real and the fabricated…
The question of fraudulence gives impetus to a final interpretive difficulty, enacting the very distance between the ‘actual’ and the ‘virtual’ which Adam experiences in his experience, concerning the semi-autobiographical nature of Lerner’s novel. Lerner was awarded a Fulbright Scholarship to Spain in 2003, and indeed he states that ‘There is enough overlap between me and the protagonist that I assume people will wonder about the relation,’ and yet ‘in a novel so much about mediation, the question of how the novel mediates my experiences would seem to arise even in a pretty unsophisticated reading’. One of two poems attributed to Adam during the narrative is taken from Lerner’s own first collection, ‘The Lichtenburg Figures’ (2004). This brief, tantalizing union of poet and protagonist complicates our sense of the novel as a whole, as we are necessarily forced into the same process of interpretation in which Adam continually engages. The author stands on the far side of a mirrored surface, ever beyond us and our comprehension, relentlessly aligned and realigned, moved and removed from a single identification with the doppelgänger of his own creation.

Reading after Tomás at the gallery evening, Adam’s poems are subsequently translated into Spanish for the audience. Unable to marry what is being spoken to what he has written, Adam has difficulty identifying his work. Nevertheless, ‘as the poem went on I slowly began to recognize something like my own voice, if that’s the word, a recognition made all the more strange in that I’d never recognized my own voice before’. Adam, like his poetry, is presented in fragments, a combination of the real and the fabricated, translated into one body. We read Lerner’s novel with hesitancy, reluctant to commit to Adam’s persona, ever-changing and unsure of itself. And yet, we slowly begin to recognize something like his own voice, mediated though it is through the multiplicity of lies, fabrications, and suspicions he engenders, never quite saying what he means. Before we can reach any finite certainty, however, our interpretations are evaded once again. Adam moves on, maintaining a constant virtuality of his own which we cannot hope to contain. As the final lines of the poem appropriated from ‘The Lichtenburg Figures’ suggests, we are engaged in a continual failure to apprehend him:

I have never been here.
Understand?
You have never seen me.

Ben Lerner continues to explore the junctures between art and contemporary life, and his work demands more attention than it has currently received. Since ‘Leaving the Atocha Station’ he has published ‘The Golden Vanity’ in The New Yorker, a new chapbook, ‘The Dark Threw Patches Down Upon Me Also’, and most recently ‘False Spring’, a short story for The Paris Review. His second novel, ‘10:04’, is due for publication in autumn of 2014.

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April 24, 2021

It has taken us some time and patience to come to this decision. TMS would not have seen the success that it did without our readers and the tireless team that ran the magazine for the better part of eight years.

But… all good things must come to an end, especially when we look at the ever-expanding art and literary landscape in Pakistan, the country of the magazine’s birth.

We are amazed and proud of what the next generation of creators are working with, the themes they are featuring, and their inclusivity in the diversity of voices they are publishing. When TMS began, this was the world we envisioned…

Though the magazine has closed and our submissions shuttered, this website will remain open for the foreseeable future as an archive of the great work we published and the astounding collection of diverse voices we were privileged to feature.

If, however, someone is interested in picking up the baton, please email Maryam Piracha, the editor, at [email protected].

Farewell, fam! It’s been quite a ride.

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